Friday, September 17, 2010

The Discipline of Confession

Hello blogging world. Today I have a song to share with you. Eventually I'd love to make some posts about song-writing and the different processes I use to write music and/or lyrics. Unfortunately I'm battling a bug so I don't feel up to it today, but that's no need to keep from sharing a bit more creativity with you, right? Anyway, there are a few other things I'd like to write to you before posting the song.

If you haven't already figured it out from my previous posts, I am a Christian. Let me preface what I'm about to write with full comfort and honesty that I am absolutely a sinner, saved by God's wonderful grace. Now, that might not mean much to you because you might have had Christian friends or leaders in the past that have really hurt you or taken advantage of you, and preached a false gospel in order to get your money, talent, or resources. If that is you, let me just say I am deeply sorry you have been hurt. If I could give you a hug and pray for you in person, I would be there in a second. While the internet is wonderful for vast communication, I wish there weren't physical restrictions sometimes. Continuing on, there are so many inaccurate portrayals of Jesus Christ in the Christian community...and there probably will always be; but there are also authentic Christians who love Jesus and want to accurately represent Him to the world.

Maybe you are wondering why I even take the time to write this...

I do so because I believe there is a need to make a distinction between the false teachers who pastor churches; the con artists of the church; those who care more about their own public image rather than God's public image and more about the money they can bring in rather than the money they can give away. 

I prefer not to be associated with this group of "Christians" who are really just frauds in sheep's clothing. Beware of Christians who say they are Christians just because it fits their social profile or it provides a place for them to influence the naive when they might not otherwise have influence. Don't be foolish about who you follow...and don't feel any pressure from me to follow me. 

I have no desire to control you, manipulate you, get money from you...hurt you. My hope is that within the pages of my blog, you would have a greater desire to know Jesus Christ, but I will never pressure you to do that. I might encourage you to do so, but that is just a natural reaction to knowing God myself. It is His love that has changed my life completely. I could find no greater joy than to see you choose to follow Christ. But, that is your choice to make. If you ever feel like I am pressuring you, I'd appreciate your feedback and accountability. :) 

I write all of this because I don't want you to feel like I'm trying to subtly sneak in a word about God within my posts with hopes that you will be under my "spell" or something. God is simply the source of my life, so it is very natural for me to write about Him. I have no hidden agenda. 

And, I cannot help but thinking about those of you who might read this and have flashbacks of the charismatic Christians I described earlier...my heart breaks to think of the confusion and pain you might have been caused. I pray you will never find that here. Once again, I welcome your input and concerns.

So, without further adieu, I hope you enjoy this song. :) It's straight from my living room to yours!

Q Berry

The Discipline of Confession:

Lyrics:
Just when I think I can't break more
The phone rings
And another low blow to my heart
Just when I fear my spirit is too worn
My mouth somehow sings
And Your hands mend every broken part

I call on You, Jesus
When my heart mourns
Only You bring true peace
I look to You, Jesus
When my eyes are blind
Only You restore my belief
I fall on You, Jesus
When my knees are failing
Only You can lift me to my feet
I cry to You, Jesus
When I am betrayed
Only You, Jesus understand
Because You were betrayed by me

Father, forgive us
We know not what we do
Father, forgive us
We know not what we do
Father, help me forgive them
As You've forgiven me
'Cause I don't want hatred
To be my legacy

I call on You, Jesus
When my heart mourns
Only You bring true peace
I look to You, Jesus
When my eyes are blind
Only You restore my belief
I fall on You, Jesus
When my knees are failing
Only You can lift me to my feet
I cry to You, Jesus
When I am betrayed
Only You, Jesus understand
Because You were betrayed by me

1 comment:

  1. That was amazing Emily, you have such a wonderful voice!

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